April 19, 2010

that I am not lost among the Big Sky
really means the world to me.


April 8, 2010

o! that I would be a tree that those burned ones could grow beneath.

April 4, 2010

lately, I’m just trying to ask Him how I can cooperate with whatever He is doing with me at this juncture. as the anxiety seizes and that persistent thought of missing “it” – whatever the variable may be replaced with (i.e. the good life, enjoyment, dreams, people, friends, occupations, et. al. ) – begins to settle upon me, this is the prayer and heart attitude that I must back up to and make a dwelling for. It’s getting so much better. He seems to lead me so often to just relax and stop thinking about the variables, which is so counter-intuitive when it is so natural to believe that when problems arise and unknowns surface that you must think them through and figure them out. I think that is conducive in just about every facet of life except for those important ones that will make you insane from fixation, mental circles, and eventually absolute worry.

Anyway, this isn’t a glamorous post, it’s just a little of what has been going on lately.

March 30, 2010

the man who says in his heart ‘there is no God’
is a fool, and he is but a breath upon this earth
and an exhalation of ash into the vast
nothingness that is his hereafter.

March 26, 2010

sunset like the end of time,
fire of civilizations glowing
and downing in the horizon.


March 22, 2010

I forget that the same way we carry Jesus in our hearts, he carries us in his. Literally, just as much as we have focused on making a place for Jesus to sit upon the throne of our hearts and let him be king and first and center there, abiding in him, we too are carried, thought of, and desired in His.  do you see what I mean to the extent that I am seeing it?

I’ve been thinking about that lately.

fear folded

March 1, 2010


I hope this blesses you.  I wish I was better at this. I know I mess it up all the time.  it’s painfully obvious sometimes. so this is my prayer, and it’s dangerous and will most likely be answered in painful and ugly ways. but, really I think it is all cosmically beautiful.

O God, be Thou exalted over my possessions.  Nothing of earth’s treasures shall seem dear unto me if only Thou art glorified in my life.  Be Thou exalted over my friendships.  I am determined that Thou shalt be above all, though I must stand deserted and alone in the midst of the earth.  Be Thou exalted above my comforts.  Though it mean the loss of bodily comforts and the carrying of heavy crosses I shall keep my vow made this day before Thee.  Be Thou exalted over my reputation.  Make me ambitious to please Thee even if as a result I must sink into obscurity and my name be forgotten as a dream.  Rise, O Lord, into Thy proper place of honor, above my ambitions, above my likes and dislikes, above my family, my health and even my life itself.  Let me decrease that Thou mayest increase, let me sink that Thou mayest rise above.  Ride forth upon me as Thou didst ride into Jerusalem mounted upon the humble little beast, a colt, the foal of an ass, and let me hear the children cry to Thee, “Hosanna in the highest.”

A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God